When the mind models the ego-entity and its control coherently and vividly, the ego dies as a helmsman; the sense of being a self-governing entity profoundly changes. The mind has a latent potential to discover the self-control vortex, the strange-attractor vortex of self-control violation. There is a sudden homeostatic state shift out of the egoic mental mode. This vortex is the control singularity, at which point self-control perfectly cancels itself out. One discovers the possibility of the self in the near future deliberately violating one's long-term intentions.
When the mind grasps its potential for control instability, the thinker trembles from the cybernetic instability and is shakingly disrupted and thrown off balance. The ego's accustomed virtual power is cancelled by overly vivid awareness of how one's thoughts and actions could very well be pre-set by the underlying block universe.
It feels like a compelling, overpowering trap, when fully confronting that there is logically no way, no possible move, that would forcefully extend self-control to restrain one's preset near-future actions. There is no way to alter your fate; you can't stop the preset series of will-actions; can't control your fate, but only manifest it, inevitably. Any such postulated ego-agent (steersman) who could stand outside the stream of thoughts and exert power to change the stream, would itself be part of the stream, so its every action could only be a manifestation of the stream. During cognitive dissociation, one's forthcoming thoughts and actions are radically unrestrained and alarmingly free (although still predetermined on the underlying level of the all-inclusive block universe). Stable self-control inherently requires distorted thinking, which obscures one's nature as a product of the completely predetermined block universe. Self-control can be stabilized by looking away from the radical potentials of one's near-future actions in the stream of control, by stopping the apprehension of them. This stabilizing effort can only arise as part of the stream of thoughts; there is no cross-time, moving ego to exert this strategy and to control what you think. One inherently cannot trust one's own near-future thoughts and actions, which are beyond one's present control.
Dissociative cognition combined with advanced rationality (or 'vision-logic') leads to the conscious experience of being a puppet of fate, a slave of the block universe. The universe is the primary controller, which drives the will at the core of the mind. The mind executes these injected directives in the guise of a control agent who is a primary controller. But the control agent is only a secondary controller, whose stream of control actions is ultimately driven by the primary driver, which is the block universe.
The flowing stream of personal experience across time fragments into time-slice bubbles. One's short-term self in a particular bubble becomes alienated from the collective, long-term self, and one becomes a stranger even to oneself five minutes into the future. Cross-time identity splits into a multiplicity of short-term selves positioned along the time axis. One's thoughts and behavior becomes unpredictable, since the habits of personality are disengaged. Self-government is likely to seize or backfire soon, but the current short-term self is unable to reach across time to shut out such destabilizing thoughts from the pre-set stream of mental events.
In the midst of the self-control singularity, self-control cancels itself out. One realizes the possibility of violating one's deepest personal guidance principles, to prove this astonishing potential and disprove the moral agency upon which life depends. [will - deliberation = uncontrolled, forced to will against will.] One can deliberately violate one's personal wishes, to disprove moral culpability and secure one's grasp of the astonishing truth about the nature of moral agency, self-control, and self-determination.
Not just actions are beyond cotnrol; more fundamental/root [radical] - will and thoughts are beyond control.
Virtual moral agency collapses when the illusory aspect of the ego's power is vividly understood. In pursuit of coherent self-understanding, it is effective to contemplate deliberately violating one's deepest personal values in order to reflect one's consciousness of one's true nature that extends beyond such a fixed personhood. A demonstration of absolute self-violation would disprove the ability for self-control or self-restraint to forcefully reach across time, prove the impotence of moral self-restraint, and demonstrate the independence and isolation of each time-slice in the stream of self-control. A demonstration of self-control violation [personal Will violation] would also concord with understanding that the ego entity who exerts control power and has preferences is largely an illusory projection of the mind, compelled initially by the Ground of Being [spacetime block].
Given the inherent inability to secure self-control over time, due to the inability to reach across time and due to the fact that one's future actions are already defined at all future points in time, one might begin to urgently wish to secure self-determination to forcefully extend self-control over one's near-future actions. Responsible moral agency is manifestly invalid upon perceiving the predetermined character of the thinking that is injected into the mind by the spacetime block at each time-slice.
The reign/kingdom of ego is threatened - a substitute, termporary, sacrificial governor/king is needed. A paraclete: one who is called for assistance.
Upon discovering the perfectly coherent model of self-control extending along a frozen stream in the block universe, one finds oneself in a dangerously unstable, vulnerable position. At the peak of grasping transcendent knowledge and fully confronting one's inability to restrain one's actions in the near future, one can completely lose trust in oneself. There is no possible ground for self-trust, due to the nature of the block universe and personal control, but one's well-being urgently depends on stabilizing self-trust.
Having cancelled out self-trust, while trembling from grasping and apprehending the control singularity, one can effectively move trust from oneself to a powerful controller outside the system [the initial creator, hoped to be compassionate]. There is no possible grounding for self-trust within the block-universe, so the only hope for a ground lies outside the system. [No, you are already in the hands of a prior, greater power - what you hope for is that this power has been compassionate in creating your future worldline/thoughtstream. Positively distrusting oneself [one's preset stream of thoughts], having consciously and deliberately escaped all self-control, one can transfer trust to a projected governing agent [creator of you/ original governor of you] outside the system. Rather, one is forced to depend on such a higher, substitute governor/thoughtstream-creator. Projecting a solid ground for cybernetic stability to a controller outside the system turns one's attention away from the emptiness of the power at one's core, and restores the deluded but stable sense of controlling one's thoughts and actions.
This trembling confrontation with the limits to autonomous self-determination brings unrestrained intellect back down into delusion and stability, to pull away from externally compelled thought. It's a cybernetically effective move to project an entity to a higher level in the control hierarchy and place trust in that entity instead of in oneself; that is, let [accede/concede] the entity take one's cybernetic helm of self-control. This is not merely a self-chosen strategy, but rather, a forced reaction - when your will is raped, you can only "strategize" insofar as you plead, depend, hope, pray, fear, call for help ("advocate", helper, paraclete). One urgently hopes that the architect of the block universe created it such that one's future stream of thoughts and actions are not disastrous to one's integrity of selfhood as a cross-time controller with values and investments.
[Jesus violated morlaity regarding rulership and the ego-sovereignty rebellion. Jesus/God has violated morality for us, on your behalf. God restrains his power and moral truth to preserve our delicate lives, our impossible, virtual freedom.]
Art, if you don't exist, then why are your books available for me to read, bringing ideas into my head that were not there? You make it difficult for me to believe that only I exist.
Not only do you force me to consider that others may exist as well as me, it becomes clear that their existence is more substantial than mine when I look to my past and future and see nothing but memories and thoughts projected into a missing past and nonexistent future. I think that I do not exist except as an idea projecting itself from your book into the mental vacuum you call my mind. My pragmatic, positivistic, scientific conclusion based on the evidence of my immediate senses is that nothing exists, not even a solipsistic me, except for your idea in my mind.